Positivity.

Everything will be fine. Deep breathe. Drink water. My new quote. Hehhehe. No matter what happen, smile. Breath in the positivity, exhale the negativity. :) must always be motivated for better future. Always stay happy, yungggg. Heheheheeheh. Youll be loved. :)

Urghhhhhh.

I feel so down that i cant even play my violin properly. Im really frustrated with things. So many things running in my mind, but i cant do anything. Great. Really dont ever try to lie to me or fool me again, cause im really dumb to believe again, though its my fault to believe it. And i realise i shudnt depend on anyone. It hurts. So bad.

Idiot.

You all really thought i dont know anything? I really understand everything that happens around me. And so? I believed you, way too much. Why people always ask me to understand what is he going through right now, why did he make such decision. Why should I? Anyone knows how much i suffer which Im not supposed to? If youre really have so much courage to make that decision, any consequences, you deserve it. Like how I take all the consequences. Dont use me to fill in your free time. Dont just talk to me whenever you like. Dont only find me when you have no companion. Im not a robot seriously. I have really strong feelings, FYI. Sigh. Maybe just my own problem. Me that fussing everything. I.. just.. like.. you.. too.. much. Nevermind. :'( Cheap bitch, that deserves it. To be played, cause she gave in all. Although, clearly know about everything, but still pushing all herself into it. Right. Such an idiot.

Hmmm..

I wasnt supposed to put high hopes. Just because you mean everything to me, and im like a dirt or a fool to you, doesnt mean youre allowed to disrespect me. You said you did not disrespect. But it doesnt mean you respect me too. Im a girl. Dont torture me with your uncertain feelings.

Surprise

Surprisingly, i cried for you again. Sigh. It isnt even my fault, but i really dont know why did i cry for. Why is loving a person is such a hard job? Or is it just you. I realised i did not fall out of love. And im still dying here. Great. I didnt expect myself to check on your whatsapp, to see whether youre online, to see whether youll be talking to me. Maybe im just again, your toy, someone you would play with when you have nothing else to do. Please dont do that to me. If its my wrong, i would apologise, but i hope you dont use the love i have to destroy me. Sigh.

Sigh.

Can I really go near you, hug you tightly and never let you go again? I know I cant. I really dont want to dream anymore, I want everything in reality. If everything would be a dream, why not be cruel to me, and let me suffer the pain. I rather choose that than, having a good time, ended up breaking my dream, happy time all again. I cant afford anymore, really. I like you, I love you, but I'm keeping the distance too. Sigh. Please help me anyone.

Who else?

Whose shoulder can i lean on? Im so afraid of things. All the while, im trying all my best to build up my own life, but end up, being cricticize by everyone. Im not a robot. Please.