Day #171: 2013.

It's the first day of 2013. Alright, it doesnt make any difference besides the group of numbers has a minor change. People make it as if its a really big day. Kay, maybe it is. Just me that not interested in celebrating it. Anyway, if it's really a good day to sweep off the past and new things to come along, I wish the coming year to be a smooth year. Theres too much dramas in last year that myself cant even handle properly. I almost kill myself in 2012 and Im glad that Im still alive for this 2013. Im grateful with everything. Be a person, we cannot be selfish, cannot be greedy. We all deserve what we deserve. Can never ask for more things, after you try your best to get it. Nothing is more hurtful than seeing the person you love to beg you to let him go while you're trying your best to make the best out of it. Everyone has different views, we cannot expect people to see everything in the way we see it. We must grow up, to see things around. I was watching this show, they said, dont have expectation, cause if the result didnt come out as you expect, you'll get disappointed again. But, sometimes, during the hard time, the expectations are the ones that act as the motivation and give you full strength to achieve the impossible. So, should we expect or we shouldnt? Is it a mistake to expect? Till now, do you think im really okay? Do you think im not suffering? I never satisfy with the decision, I said a lot of times, but anything i can change? Theres a lot more than I want to change, but can I? Relationship is a bout 2 individuals, if one side keeps putting effort to make things go on, but the other side keeps running away or giving up, theres no way to say it's going to work out. Dont ever dream of forever. In a relationship, one side keeps asking to break up, no matter how hard the other tries, it will never work. Cause the one that ask to break up will always be the dominant and the one that always tries will end up taking all the blames, swallowing all the pains. Then whats the purpose to make that work? Wake up, and see the world properly, to whoever that can fit into this situation. Dont give up on the one that loves you, for the one that wants to run away from you. We live for ourselves. Love is not the whole world.