Birthday.

I was wondering, is it me asking too much? Or I expected too much? For 20 years in my life, I have no idea whether I have any true friends. Am I such a dumbass to put my birthday as the standard of how well my friends are? For the years, besides family, which is also I purposely ask for a birthday dinner, no one else celebrated with me. Only that one particular year my which i dont know I should miss, or not. I tried my best to celebrate my friends' birthdays, cause I know, I wouldnt like to celebrate birthday on my own. I dont need any birthday party, or anything fancy. I just want someone who I really care, to at least willing to spend some time with me on the special day. Till the day before my birthday, I waited, no one invites me for dinner or lunch. I promised to work on that day, for only one reason, I really dont want to have my birthday alone. I rather work, at least theres someone will be there to at least wish me. Honestly, who will wanna work on their birthday? Definitely not me, but i chose to work as well. Its really disappointed on how others treat me. They made me doubt, am i not good enough, as a friend, as a person? Do I not worth any celebration? Sigh. Or maybe just me, asking too much. Be contented, Yung. At least youre lucky.