BFF?

I have to be grateful. I need to cherish. I must appreciate.
But if I really feel uncomfortable, why do i still have to find excuse for you to make myself feel better?
It clearly that, things had changed. I have no value for you anymore, thus, you dont even find me?
I already tried not to think much. If it's not because that you dont have enough people, will you still ask us? I doubt so. Im so sorry. I know im wrong. But if i really not happy with it, you cant force me to smile in front of everyone right? Why do i still have to deal with all this shit? urghh.