Balloons.

If there is a balloon in your hand, and you accidentally let it go. You'll realise the balloon flew higher and higher in the sky, looking free. Letting go doesnt mean giving up, it's just giving each other bigger space to grow. To seek for the one and only you. Read this article. What do you feel holding a cup of water for few minutes? Nothing. What about few hours? Arm ache. What if its for a day? Arm numb and might get paralyze too. Letting go is easy to say, nothing easy to do. But if we dont try, we will never know. And this tells us, let go things in life, to feel less stress, less burdened. If not, time by time, you'll explode and yeah, you'll know what is it. :D Change to be a better person. :) In a better way.

13 Feb.

A year ago, its the day when everyone knew about us. Bet you dont even remember that. That's the difference between us, treating the bond seriously or not. :) It just shows how fail I am, how pathetic I am, that someone loved me, can actually love his ex back. Sigh. Its even better if its someone else, but no. No one knows how it hurts a girl. Haha.

Thank you.

Thank god im safe. And thank you for those who saved me. Indescribable appreciation. Thank you~~!!

A year.

Its been a year since we first met. If you remember. And its the 4th of the month. You supposed to know what day it was. Obviously it doesnt matter anymore. Was cleaning up things and found these papers. Only if you remember what are these, but i dont think you even remember a bit. I still dont satisfy with what had happened. Never can get rid of the feeling, being betrayed.

Forever so.

Whats wrong with everyone? Is it my problem? Why everyone likes to pick on me? Why everyone likes to leave me? I tried my best to be the one that everyone wants me to be. Im really tired to fulfill everyone's wish. If none of you wish to stay in my life, then dont ever appear. I just want to be myself and the happy that i used to be. Ever since i was in a relationship, everything changed. What the fuck all of you want from me? Dont tell me how stress, how hard all of you are. Im not even better from any of you. I forced myself to forget everything, forced myself to accept all the fact, forced myself to be happy again, why dont you all give me a chance to be myself? Dramas keep happening in my life. I DONT NEED ANY. I just want my life to be normal. Dad, why dont you just bring me along and leave me like this? I just want the best for everyone. I hate being seperated again and again. If i have a chance, I would just run away. I rather to be alone from now on, instead of being clingy to anyone. Not even my family anymore. Kill. Me. Please. For everyone's happiness.