Hi.

Hi dad. How are you? Its been half a year. I still miss you so much. Nowadays, when i see dads bringing their kids to walk around, I have this feeling, I wish my dad is here too. Daughter that has a dad is a really beautiful thing. I wish I had more time with you. That day, when I had golf, which was a terrible game, I played so bad that people around me were so scared of me when they see my reaction after every shot. Dad, Wilson said i did not enjoy the game and keep wanting every shot to be perfect which makes the whole game worse. How can i enjoy when i cant play well. I've played golf for nearly ten years. Those shots are not acceptable. I still remember I told you, no matter how bad my game is, I will not allow 3 putts or any top shots in my game. I need all the shots get the best impact. But i did not do that during the whole game. Even my driver shots were screwed. How can I forgive myself? Im not really a perfectionist, but when it comes to golf, I am, for sure. Cause that is the only connection I have with you, with all the clubs that you bought for me. They said my clubs are not good enough, are for kids, asking me to sell it away, but i will never do that. Why didnt you enter my dream? Do you know how much i want to see you, but i cant? Please be here for me.

Happy Mother's day.

Hi mommy. I couldnt really express how i feel properly, but theres a lot of thing that i want to tell you. Yes. I know you will never gonna read this, but i just want to express myself in a way. Im sorry I couldnt be a good daughter. Im sorry Im not as amazing as the others. Thank you for letting me to be the little princess whenever I want to. Im sorry that I didnt know to appreciate myself more and cut myself for a guy. I will never do that again. Thank you for being the pillar of the family after dad left. I dont know who will understand how i feel exactly, but i swear im not exaggerating anything. Im really grateful to be here. Im sorry for whatever i did that hurt you. And i just realised i have a lot of things to apologize. Which means im doing more bad things. For this year ahead, i will put in all my effort to make everything works out perfectly. I know you wish im happy more than anything. I will be the happiest girl. I will never cry to anyone, for anyone anymore. Im strong, determined girl. The jovial, cheerful, positive yung yung.

Its okay.

Im a girl, please dont fool my feelings, though i know you dont really treat me like a girl. Its okay. I know you took everything as joke, but i took it real. It was my fault to believe. Kind of hurt, but im alright. Tears behind the smile? :) Thanks for the dream anyway. :)