Sunday, October 9, 2016


Its not a problem for being single, of course, you have all the freedom you want. However, its just those times that you wish you have someone to talk to, to share things with. Well, I have loads of close friends that I can talk to, but its just different feelings, when someone that will be with you. Someone you can call as your soul mate, understands your problem even before saying it. I just miss those feelings to have that someone I can text to, especially when im stressed out. Maybe Im just being a bit desperate. :/

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Ongoing inernship.

Just came across my blog, and realized that my last post was 3 months ago, before my internship. Things had been so tough and rough to me. Well, my decision, who else to complain. Everyday has been challenging, not because of the internship job scopes, but because of the amazing boss that does not think about his staffs. Of course i understand his intention as a boss, but I do not agree with his doing. All I can say is to be tough, strong and positive.

Friday, December 18, 2015


Time flew so fast, that I soon need to go for internship. Honestly, deciding to go Singapore is not easy decision for me. It took a lot of courage for me to make this decision, to not care. I know food science is not an encouraged field in Singapore, it will be hard to even find a placement there. I expected too much, and when result did not turn out as I expected, I break down, and always attempt to hide from making all the life-related decisions. I guess, its really time to make my own decisions that changes life. I know tough times ahead, and I need to go through it, and grow stronger. I am on my own, I can do this.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015


I'm quite sad that everyone is transferring to merchants and I have to stay in bb. Sigh. I totally understand why mum wants me to stay, and not let me go there, but I like there more,. I cant blame mum for being so worried, only to blame myself, why am I even so playful. I know, to her, I'm exposing myself to risks, but I dont think I will get any injuries or accident working there? There's more other people there. Thats why, im so annoyed and mad. But, what to do, will just see what happen later.. :(

Friday, July 31, 2015


Currently in Germany, blogging about this. Kinda thought about myself abit after the lecture about perfect speech. I may look cheerful and happy from the outside, trying to keep myself happy, but I tend to have a lot of negative thoughts about others. Which sort of defeats me, and making me feel bad. I cant help to hate things that people around do. Even just a small thing and doesnt really matter to anyone. :/ I should not be so judgmental anymore. :(

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Summer School

Will soon be leaving for my summer school trip. I was supposed to be very excited, but somehow the group of friends kind of demotivates me. Instead, I will miss all my working friends. No matter how tired I am, I dont regret working for Merchant's Lane. People showered me with love, endlessly. Im so blessed to have them in my growing years. I know I will not have similar chance anymore, but oh well, I have some experience that other dont? The only positive thing I could think of. Special thanks to Ken Tan and Jun. I cant imagine life in BB or Merchants to be the same without you guys. YOU ARE AWESOME! Another irreplaceable working partners. :3

Monday, July 13, 2015

The last paper of Sem 5.

I remember the last post was about how stressful is my Sem 5 and how I complain about people. Time flies, and its finally the last paper in 32 hours time. I really tried my best to study real hard for this semester, one thing is to prove that im able to manage my time properly, doing what i love at the same time. I must say, everything went so well. Of course, there were so many challenges in between, and look, I embraced them all and went through it. I believe, Im now having a better me, with a true self. Im really afraid of people discriminating me, thus, making me timid and dont speak often. I always say things wrongly, and people will start to discriminate me, in the way that, "you backstab me, i dont want to talk to you", but I was just telling the truth. :( Anyhow, Im glad for being who I am today. I need more improvement, I know. But oh well, we are all learning right.. It takes time, not too long though. Lets do this together, mates!