Over-expect.

People who know me, I put friends as one of my prior. Recently, things have been bad. Maybe its just me over thinking or over expecting. But im really tired in pleasing anyone. I totally understand that theres no one asked me to please anyone. In real life, I just care about certain people a lot. I ranted to quite a lot of closer friends, but people dont deserve to listen to all my nonsense right? I still have to deal it myself.

I must tell myself, from now on, I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING. I will bitch all the shit out. I can really act dumb at times, and im working this fine. I know I may have problem as well. But I really wish people can tell me whats my problem, and i can work on it, instead of just brushing it off.

Kay. Im gonna start being a bitch. Damn it.

Overthink.

I always put friends as my prior. I totally understand that the way you treat them, do not expect them treating you the same way. I think I'm expecting too much. It makes me really tired to care about what other people think. But I care about your thoughts means I really care about you, isn't it what a friend should do? I really couldnt focus much. I just overthink too much. I rather you tell me off that you dont like me, not happy with me, then expecting me to guess. Please dont pretend that you're okay when obviously you're not okay with me. It's really super creepy. Sigh. Usually, after writing a post, I would be better, but today, this seems ineffective. :(