Sigh.

Am I having a big problem with my personality recently?
I can feel that friends are leaving me.
Friends might be those not true ones.
And I know who are they.
Seriously, I know.
I sort of feeling sad when i realized.
But why should I be sad when those people wont be sad for you?
They dont even feel anything.
I'm like some passer-by to them.
I'm saying it out here cause i know not many people reading my blog.
And it's been in the deep side of my heart for some time.
It's bothering me.

To those who expect much from me, and i disappoint you.
I'm so sorry.
And I mean it.
I dont know what happen, but i think i did something wrong.
That's why people are ignoring me.
I hope you can tell me my problem and i can work on it.

*Is friend really a true soul, a good companion?*
Sigh.

It's coming to the end.

Holiday is coming to the end.
What i have been doing in the last 2 weeks.
-.-
I just feel like blogging.
And it's 1.00am in the morning right now.
Thinking of you.
The hopeless one.
The one people keep saying he's an ***.

Watched Devil. It's awesome.
Dont do bad things, or else...
I'm just a failing lame person.
Ignore my "lameness".
Sometimes i feel like spilting everything out.
But it doesnt seem want to let others know.
I cant do anything.
Be the one you should be. Live your life, to the fullest.

-Mrs Leeteuk Wannabe-

Vacation.

It's good to have a vacation with relatives.
Although i'm alone without family, but yet i'm still happy.
The worst thing of the trip is... I cant online.
And i miss the lappy so much. D:
And msn too. LOL.
Even I shouldn't feel that.
Luckily i brought my PSP, bingo and word search with me.
If not, I rather die.
It's not boring, but just eat.
Beside eating, nothing really enjoyable to do there.
The moment i cherished the most is I can sleep with my cousins in a bed.
3 people in 1 queen size bed.
It's squeezy, but that's the best thing to appreciate.
Cause I know we seldom have the chance to do that together.
We even played cards in the midnight when everyone was asleep.
Shouting and slapping noises around the room.
Which actually annoy others.
But, do we look like we care? xD
Yes, we do care.
And we stopped playing after that.
We started the trip from Puchong.
Stopped in Segamat, Johor.
The other day, stopped by in Melacca to find some food.
Unfortunately, the queue was too long and we didnt have the patient to wait under the sun for such a long time.
So.. We left.
And went to seremban to search for food again.
Maybe due to public holiday, there wasn't any shop which is opened.
Thus, we had KFC there. -.-
Pathetic.
That's our lunch.
So, we're off back to KL.
And had our dinner here.
Perfect fullstop by singing Happy birthday song to my uncle. ;D

Lonely midnight.

It's 12.30 in the midnight now.
And i'm staying up alone.
Sitting in front of the computer.
Copying the lyrics of Dont stop believing by The Glee Cast.
This lyric is really meaningful.
Read it word by word, it links to what i'm thinking right now.

"Don't stop believing,
Hold on to that feeling"

I was about to give up everything i was trying hard to achieve.
But i didn't. Even i know it wont happen till forever. =/

The stars are beautiful, but i will be the only one who enjoy the breath-taking scence.
How i wish you could come to me and let me lie on your shoulder, telling me: yes, they're beautiful. =)

Here We Go!

Here comes the holidays.
A 2 weeks long holidays.
It's going to be boring holiday, I bet.
And I'll miss him so much. T-T

Anyway, happy Holidays, Peeps!

-Mrs Leeteuk Wannabe-