Pathetic life.

Sometimes I really feel left out, when i thought i actually have some really good friends.
I tried to be good, smile always.
And i guess they think i'm too good to be bullied.
People are saying i'm fat, ugly and some really harsh words.
It really hurts me, for your information.
But it doesn't seem like a matter to anyone.
Now i realised most of the people are treating me like i'm their maid, or just for some companion when they're alone.
I feel like i'm an extra person in this world.
I WANT SOMEONE THAT REALLY TREAT ME WELL WITH THEIR HEART.
The only person that can do that to me is Tessa.
But I think I've hurt her feelings too many times.
Which makes her feel uncomfortable when she's with me.
Primary School, High School.
I REALLY hope that there will be some changes in my future days.

A list of christmas wish.

Dear Santa,
I wonder, do you actually exist in this world?
I'm from Malaysia. Do you send presents to here when the houses here are without chimney.
Are you really fat? Can you actually jump down from the chimney?
I have a list of wish:
1. I want a blackberry.
2. I want a set of PRGR "Swing" golf set.
3. I want to Australia.
4. I want to go Korea.
5. I want to meet Leeteuk.
6. I want to meet Yesung.
7. I want to go every concert of SUPER JUNIOR.
8. I want to go for SM's, SNSD's, SHINee's and F(x)'s concerts.
9. I want my dad's health.

10. I want a peachful family.

11. I want a warm family.

12. I want a place that we can stay in which belongs to us.

13. I want my mum to be happy.

14. I want my mum to enjoy her life instead of suffering with the really bitchy people.

15. I want my siblings to be happy.

Maybe because i'm not a kid anymore, I dont really believe in your existance.

But this is definitely what i want.

I might be a bad girl throughout the year, but i believe I'm not.

I'm a good girl. :)

Thanks Santa.

An early Christmas wish for you.

Merry Christmas. <3

It's the 200th post.

Hi, people. It's my 200th post.
happy 200 posts. LOL.

5 Cendana #2011 SMKSBSSKK

Tough days are over.

Finally the tough days are over.
The days which we used up to 11 years just for that.
It's totally an amazing fullstop for my high school life.
And so, i decided to make a video for my class.
It was really disappointing when no one actually watch it and comment on it.
Like the wantan thing during the class party.
It was really depressing.
Soon, people started to comment and like the video.
I felt so touch and happy.
Finally my hardwork pay off.
It really means a lot to me.
I know that video means a lot to everyone.
I wish everyone likes it. :D