Love that never be mine.

 A year ago, I got close with this colleague of mine, who is taken. At first, I didnt know he was taken. I thought everything was normal. We were so attracted to each other, until the day I confessed, then only he admitted he's taken. My heart sunk, and i didnt know what to do. By right, things have to end there, but we crossed the line. We were so in love. We were 14 years apart, but no numbers should define the relationship between us. Fast forward till now, we had finally separated, in a very bad way. I am so into you, that i didnt want to admit everything you did to me was hurting me in every way. From the person that will never even talk loudly to me, to the person that shouted at me because I waited for you. From the person that will always put me as priority, to the person that doesnt even read my messages. What did I do, that caused all these changes? I dont know. These things had lasted for 2 months, and yet I still held on to it, cause deep down, I still believe that you do that to me, cause you didnt have a choice. But then, I finally came to realise, if you ever love someone, you wouldnt want to do anything to make her sad or leave her alone. You drove away in front of me, when i was crying by the roadside. I've asked to meet for months, just to have a closure, and you find all your ways to escape. Up till now, I dont even know how we ended like this. Until the point I hate myself more, to be so annoying and disturbing. I love you but i cant do anything. I tried to be strong and just move on, it's not easy. I've imagined doing so many things with you, cause its you. But now, I'm really broken, and i finally see that, you dont love me anymore. If you do, i really dont know how could you do all those things to me, without feeling anything. Baby, how can we turn things back to normal? Is it even possible? Do you even love me before? Or you just wanted to sleep with me? Every single day Im suffering, but i need to look through that. I wish you were mine, but i know you can never leave her, and be mine. Love isnt that powerful, or maybe there isn't love.