Love.

Only God knows how much i love you, and how much i didnt want to forget you. I know I can always just let things go and not think about it. I'm definitely capable to do so, but the problem is, I dont want to do so. Everyone has been telling me how terrible you are, how irresponsible you are, do you think i dont know any of this? But i didnt want to believe that that's what you really meant. I knew you loved me, i knew you reacted like this for a reason. I also know that, you no longer have feelings towards me, or even to care about me. Nothing about me actually triggers your attention anymore. I read through our messages last time. You were so caring, so loving, so considerate. Everything was about me, about us. But now, just one sentence, "I dont think we are compatible". But do you even let me try? I gave all in, and all i want is just to be with you, and only you. You just turned your back away from me, without any explanation. You have no guts to explain or even to talk it out with me. And yet, I will still be shameless to text you, call you, which i believe makes you feel annoying. Thats how much i want you to be in my life. I wish i can express myself better, tell you how i truly feel. But we are just not meant to be, i guess. I love you, Chung Loong baobei. 

我希望我终于学会了。还是很想你，朱侲龙宝贝。