A list of christmas wish.

Dear Santa,
I wonder, do you actually exist in this world?
I'm from Malaysia. Do you send presents to here when the houses here are without chimney.
Are you really fat? Can you actually jump down from the chimney?
I have a list of wish:
1. I want a blackberry.
2. I want a set of PRGR "Swing" golf set.
3. I want to Australia.
4. I want to go Korea.
5. I want to meet Leeteuk.
6. I want to meet Yesung.
7. I want to go every concert of SUPER JUNIOR.
8. I want to go for SM's, SNSD's, SHINee's and F(x)'s concerts.
9. I want my dad's health.

10. I want a peachful family.

11. I want a warm family.

12. I want a place that we can stay in which belongs to us.

13. I want my mum to be happy.

14. I want my mum to enjoy her life instead of suffering with the really bitchy people.

15. I want my siblings to be happy.

Maybe because i'm not a kid anymore, I dont really believe in your existance.

But this is definitely what i want.

I might be a bad girl throughout the year, but i believe I'm not.

I'm a good girl. :)

Thanks Santa.

An early Christmas wish for you.

Merry Christmas. <3

It's the 200th post.

Hi, people. It's my 200th post.
happy 200 posts. LOL.

5 Cendana #2011 SMKSBSSKK

Tough days are over.

Finally the tough days are over.
The days which we used up to 11 years just for that.
It's totally an amazing fullstop for my high school life.
And so, i decided to make a video for my class.
It was really disappointing when no one actually watch it and comment on it.
Like the wantan thing during the class party.
It was really depressing.
Soon, people started to comment and like the video.
I felt so touch and happy.
Finally my hardwork pay off.
It really means a lot to me.
I know that video means a lot to everyone.
I wish everyone likes it. :D

Short message.

Wooooo~
It's been 3 days suffering in the exam hall.
another 7 days more to go.
I finally finished the 2 papers that i scared the most.
It's like half of the stress is gone.
Feeling awesome.
Kay. Gtg.
Tomorrow is Maths paper. :)
After this exam, goodbye to my high school life.
Gonna miss it so much, I guess. :)

Girl, appreciate what you have.

Girl, do you know that you actually have the best family, best support and best people by your side?
I know you're still young to think bout any of these things.
Anyway, you have the best golf set, please take care of it.
Even mine are not as good as yours, but i appreciate what i have.
You have the best support from your mum who willing to send you here and there for golf practices EVERYDAY.
So, stop complaining.
You get to go to course for at least once a week when i only get to go course like twice a year?
Dont get lazy and do what you're supposed to do.
You have the best coach with another 4 assistants that can teach you everyday.
Eventhough we have the same coach, he hardly even comes to my bay to teach me a single thing.
Even i dont have the best golf set, dont have a really supportive family, barely get to see the golf course, no one tells me what to do at what time...
I appreciate what i own.
I'm grateful that i have a golf set.
I'm grateful that i can go for 2 times of golf game a year.
I'm grateful that an assistant of our coach willing to train me.
Even i have mistake, i learn from what i did and accept what i did wrongly.
Please stop your bad habits like overestimate yourself.
And listen to people advices. Dont always give the damn face when you're only 11.
You have a long way to go. High school is not as easy you think.
We are supposed to appreciate what we have. :D

Invisible.

These days, I was thinking, friends are what to me?
I still remember when i was in primary school, everyone was saying friends forever.
It's so fake to me now.
People can just forget you, like you've never exist.
Whatever, best friend forever, BFF, it's just a piece of shit to me.
People are selfish. That's human's nature.
There might be minority of them outside the world, any corner, who are exceptional.
But guess what, majority people just think bout themselves.
And i guess i'm one of them.
I used to trust freindships.
After several times being betrayed, I will never trust anyone.
I thought I had a really good time when I was in primary school.
But, recently, I found out, not even one of them remember me.
I felt like a little ant at a side, alone.
No one realise that I was actually their classmate.
Based on this experience, I can make another statement.
No one will remember me after my high school graduation.
Even how hard i try to make something that worth people remembering.
Do not blame me when i do something really selfish.
i am who i am.
I've tried to stay positive. I just want attention.
From certain people who i really care.
But nevermind. It's nothing to me now.
Thank you, schoolmates. For giving such a memorable time. T-T