Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Day #109: Halloween.
I realise my blog posts dont follow sequences when i type. Everything jumble up. HAHA. First about what happened to myself, then my thoughts, then feelings, back to daily stuffs, and some stupid own theories. I wonder what people feel to read these.. Hmm..
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Day #108: Love.
*i n 55!W 1 [I really do.]
Monday, October 29, 2012
Day #107: Magic.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Day #106: Stressful.
I realised myself, think of you more frequent these days. Its not right. Totally not right. Never right. If i can just forget things, it must be really good. I hate myself doing that. Everything will be alright, Yung. I talked to mum today about some problem. I told her, everything happened, just smile. What else can we do when we face problem after trying your best and people dont appreciate it? Smile. Just that easy. I can tell her how easy it is, but im not even sure, whether i can do it. But i dont think so. Ive been trying so hard to get everything off my mind. I just couldnt. Still fighting for that one moment. I know i can do it. Cause i know you wouldnt care anymore. And im trying my best to not care for anyone anymore. People take advantage from people who care for them. Thats true. I totally agree.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Day #105: Nature.
The mother nature is so beautiful. Its so amazing that how the nature brings the beauty to our life, lighten it, brighten it, colored it and beautify it. Just a simple flower is able to change the atmosphere of the event. Like, how roses make a place romantic, how flowers make a successful wedding and how trees make a garden looks lively. God's creation, best ever. It's just so pretty. As usual, went golf today. It was awesome, like always. I realised, a person, he can laugh, joke insult people everytime, but when it comes to something really serious, like health, hes much more responsible than you ever thought. CK is so responsible about everything, though hes been annoying and disturbing, to me. But without his disturbance, i know every golf time will be boring though. LOL. Im blessed that im surrounded with people who have good hearts being kind and caring, just a few that are really suckers. -.- Its okay, Yung. Just forget about those who dont even care about anything, theres much more that worth you from caring. Ohh. And i stalked one of my friend's facebook. She's such a slut. Seriously. On the 13th of Oct, she told this guy how much she missed him and so, but on the 23rd of Oct, she changed her relationship status to "in a relationship" with another guy. THAT IS SO GROSS. Ewww. Just saying. LOL. Some people just can get into a relationship so fast. I dont even think she's serious in dating that person. I mean to both. -.- Like how you did to me, apparently.
"Saying i love you, is not the words that i want to hear from you, Its not that i want you, not to say but if you only knew, how easy it would be to show me how you feel, more than words, is all you have to do to make it real than you wouldnt have to say that you love me, Cause i'd already know." - More than words (Westlife) This is one of my favorite song. Yeah, as everyone says, action means more than words. Dont ever trust guys, I mean it. All of their words are just sweet words that got you into traps and never mean to save you out from it again. They'll let you die inside, alone. Or else, climb out yourself.
Friday, October 26, 2012
Day #104: Holiday.
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Day #103: Absence.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Day #102: Robot.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Day #101: Baking.
Monday, October 22, 2012
Day #100: Wow.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Day #99: Appreciation.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Day #98: Emily.
Friday, October 19, 2012
Day #97: Blank.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Day #96: Secret.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Day #95: Life.
Life is like a bitch. It always brings you things that make you suffer. But if life didnt be such a bitch, how did we even learn? we cant even have an interesting life. We always screw up life, but its your own choice to whether stand up or keep that pain. It will be hard but no one guarantees its not working. Somehow, people need to always be responsible to their own decision. When you lose something because you made a wrong decision, take all the consequences. Im quite disappointed on your decision in doing everything. You should really learn to have your own life. Instead of blindly following everything was planned. No one knows what will happened in the end. Life doesnt always follow plans. It gives you strength after every failure. Its okay to fail, better than going back to the same mistake always, pretending alright. Sure. You can always lie to yourself that everything is alright.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Day #94: Grow up.
Monday, October 15, 2012
Day #93: Strangers.
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Day #92: Good.
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Day #91: Saturday.
Friday, October 12, 2012
Day #90: Experience.
- Ignore your own feelings, yung. Shun all to the back and remind yourself, it's his loss.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Day #89: Honest.
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Day #88: Ouch.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Day #87: Alright.
Monday, October 8, 2012
Day #86: Rise.
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Day #85: Pain.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Day #84: Dream.
I wish I could sleep all day long and not wake up to face the world again. I dont want to wake up. Yes. Im still dwelling in the past. Im so sorry if it bothers anyone. 84 days, its not a short period. Every part of me still hurt so much. What am i thinking? What i want? I dont understand myself anymore. I just want to hide in my shell. I dont want to come out anymore. I would do anything just for one guy. I would, even to lose friends. Whether it worths, I would. I know i dont have much friends now. Everyone is like, leaving me again. I dont know who else i can talk to. I dont need to talk, actually. Cause it will turn out the same thing. I dont dare to open up again. Im really afraid to be hurt again. Im afraid to have something or someone good, and everything is taken away in a while. I cant afford to lose things again. Yeah. Probably they were right, i said sorry to make myself feel better. It was all lie. I lied. Everything i said were lies. Liar doesnt deserve to have good treatments. Its all my punishment. Serve me. Goodnight, dear.